Man looks on the outward appearance but God looks on the heart. There are a lot of family details in this story so bear with me. My wife's grandfather just passed away. I came home from work and My wife started to tell me how her father sent a message through his son my wifes brother to my wife that she nor her sister were allowed to go to the funeral or he would not be responsible for what happened. To say I got angry would be an understatement. I didn't swear but I did raise my voice and if not for the Spirit of the Lord in me I would have gone down to where the boy works and given him a piece of my mind. I didn't sleep well that night. I prayed and asked God to calm me and watch over my wife as she went to the funeral. The next day I prayed hard as I drove around to my different stops during the day. I actually asked God to give her dad a sour stomach so he would have to miss the funeral. While I prayed I heard God say to me "I have a better way". I thought for a minute what could be better than my way? Oh yeah Gods way is always better. I saw angels surrounding her as I prayed. I asked God to show me why I was so defensive when someone threatened us. I know it is a mans job to protect but I really was on the edge. God pulled me away from the situation and allowed me to see like from a distance the situation. I held guilt for not being able to protect my mother when she was married to my dad. I asked God to forgive me for not being able to protect her. I was balling my eyes out. Now the rest of the story. My dad and mom had been married fell into hard times and the relationship became abusive. My dad walked out on my mom. Left her with a farm, bills, 4 kids under 12 and one on the way. Yup that was me. I never knew I held this. I do not know why I held this but I am protective of my mother as well as my wife. I cannot stand abuse. Now I know why and why I respond so intensely. I felt a weight off after I confessed this.
I came home from work and picked up the girls and headed to wednesday night service as my wife her mom and sister were heading to the funeral. When I got to church the pastor and I prayed for the situation. We saw restoration as we prayed for safety and for God's protection.Then he said he wasnt feeling good that night so I prayed for him along with one of the ladies from church. We all felt the presence of the Holy Spirit. I told him what had happened to me during the day.
So what happened at the funeral? Well my wife uncle hugged her and cried when he saw her and he held my wifes hand whenever he wasn't in line. Her whole family comforted her and her dad just shook her hand and did not act out in any way. So we saw the restorarion as her family came around her and they comforted each other and God used an uncle, he didn't have to send an angel he already had someone waiting to take care of the whole thing and protect my wife, physically and emotionally.
Gods ways are not our ways and Gods thought are not our thought for he has a more excellent plan for us....If we only believe and have faith.
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