The first significant event. The Kilei syndrome. Kilei my then 6 year old had a chronic cough. she had it for years and had been to more doctors appointments than I can count. Her last few trips were to Galisano childrens hospital. She had been on every medication known to man. some natural som that would produce terrible nightmares. Sometimes she would get relief for a short time and other medicines no relief at all. We had been in the hospital a few times some stay as much as four days. Her cough would be so deep and so hard that she would cry for relief and we would cry for her feeling so helpless. The cough would go away for a while then come back. No ryhme no reason. It wasn't in her chest although it could lead to pnemonia or bronchitis. She could get worked up in gym class and send her into a coughing frenzy even though she had left the house fine that morning.
So here we are at Doug Stanton's first meeting and at the end of the meeting Kilei starts coughing. We prays for a few people and closes the meeting. We came back the next night and I talked to Doug's wife. She assured me that he would probably pray for Kilei that night that he just closes the meeting early some nights as he feels the Lord lead. We started the meeting that night and when the prayer time came he prayed for a few people as Kiles cough started again as in she was coughing so much it was disruptive. He closed the meeting out again and I felt myself question. I was upset. Why wasn't he praying for her. What was going on why wouldn't God lead Doug to pray for my daughter.
The next night Doug prayed for her a little but to no avail. I questioned my own faith as we sat around the altar while many were getting prayed for. A man that I have seen at the meetings several times came and sat next to me as I wept and confessed to him my doubts and that I don't have the faith to see Kilei healed. He grabbed me by the back of my kneck and loudly said "oh you don't believe that" . He said this is more about you than her. We talked for a short time. My insides were boiling. I was mad! I was mad at him mad at Doug and mad at God. In silence I got in the car quietly putting the children in and making the 25 minute drive home. My wife asked me what is wrong I just said I was tired. I was in fact tired very tired. I was worn out. I have been in Church all my life but this night I was ready to quit and I don't mean stop going to church I mean give up on God. Throw down say no more I have had it. I cannot do this any longer it make no sense none of it. I did not tell this to anyone that night. I went home got in bed and stewed more. I went to sleep finally after silent tears so as to not draw attention from my wife as it was shamful for me to give up and be hopeless.
The next morning I got up and for some reason in my dismal state went up to church locked myself in and poured my heart out to God. In 20 minutes I prayed through and got my joy back. So what changed? My perspective! Kilei is not my possesion she is my daughter given to me to care for from God and to show her all I know. She is God's daughter and if God wants her to cough then I will hold her hand as she coughs if he wants to heal her then he can but God is God and it is not my priviledge to question him. I looked back into the previous night and saw the darkness that surrounded me, The lies of satan to sway me from my path. I went to revival that night and confessed to some what had happened. Doug prayed for me that night and I fell to the ground. The meetings went on and one night while eating dinner at the house Kilei said when that lady screamed at church it hurt my ears. Angie and I looked at each other puzzled. We decided to test Kilei. We stood behind her and talked in a normal voice and asked if she could hear us she said yes. Then I stood 10 feet behind her and whispered and she heard me. We were filled with joy. Kilei had been scheduled in the next week or
so to have permanent tubes put in her ears ( her second pair) and they were afraid she has already suffered hearing loss because of fluid behind her eardrum or up against her eardrum. Angie looked at me and said wellwhat do we do her appointments are all set. I said just call them and say you want her checked because you think something may have changed. Well she did but the receptionist wouldn't settle for a vague reason. So Angie said you won't believe me if I told you the receptionist said try me. So Angie told her of the healing. Kilei went in to get checked and the doctor said after a physical exam well we can probably put tubes in anyway. Then they took Kilei in for a hearing test and she raised her hands when she heard the sounds in the appropriate ear. Then the test was over and the person administering the test accidentally hit another button a button with a pitch that Kilei should not have been able to hear and Kilei raised her hand. The doctor said you heard that. Yes Kilei replied. "there is no way we are putting tube in her hearing is perfect" Praise God for his miracle healing. There is documentation in the doctors office to prove this.
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