Welcome to my blog. Why did I start such a journey? What a bold name, I must have the corner on religion. Surely by reading my blog you will see my amazing spiritual journey and be lifted to the very throne of God by my insight, wisdom and knowledge. Well I wish. In fact I will share my drudgery struggles and pain. My years of being blinded, stumbling and failing. I jot this all down for two reasons. For I myself to see my travels and to share and maybe someone can grab something to help and encourage them.

I am a 48 year old male. Father of 8. 5 natural and 3 adopted adults. I have always worked hard and failed even harder. I will start at the end of the old. April of 2013 A man named Bill who is in charge of a huge area for outreach and church planting stood in the pulpit. This is a man who works where the rubber meets the road. He reaches out and feeds and cloths 27 of the poorest 100 counties in the United States. They are in Kentucky the coal mines that have suffered through the Obama administration. This is the life that Bill knows and the people he loves. He commands my respect with his work. "Every preacher that wants to start churches will go through a personality assesment as well as other computer generated forms of testing", he continues every one of them does not make it in a church plant. I want to know one thing as he looks into our hearts, tell me about your daily experience with God. How much time do you spend in God's word daily. The waves of reality washed over me. I say I am a Christian man. I act like it most of the time. I participate in church and always help wherever needed. Suddenly the old adage came to mind. Being in a hanger doesn't make you a plane any more than going to church on Sunday makes you a Christian. Don't get me wrong I am saved, baptized and forgiven. I pray and read Gods word but not daily. I have not developed a relationship a constant relationship with God my Father.